SPOILER ALERT: Don't read unless you have read 17% of The Summer Garden.
I am livid. Shura is TRYING to talk - really TALK - to Tatiana about his dreams...which is such a catharsis...and what does she say? "I don't want to hear this".
Um, WHAT?!? Are you KIDDING ME?!? Hearing this is EXACTLY what he needs from you - but you want to sweep it all under the rug? That's it, Tania. Just close your eyes and it'll all go away. So tell me - are you really Russian? Because right now you're seeming really Irish to me. Just ask my Irish mother about sweeping things under the rug. She'll tell you all about it. Or not.
UGH. And we were going to find out what he was doing in Deer Isle...but nooooo...Tania has to ruin it. And he was going to get some relieving answers about her time in New York - but nooooo...Tania doesn't want to talk about it.
The more I think about New York - the more I know that's Shura's biggest obstacle. And you know why? Because he's a control freak. He can't stand the fact that Tania made her way in the world without him. She worked - had friends - had a life. And although it kills them both that she did it under HIS false pretenses, she did it. She lived. She wasn't relying on him for a thing. And he hates that. And you know why? Because it means she can leave him at any time and be fine. But he would NOT be fine. He knows his life had zero meaning before she dazzled him in her white dress with red roses and ice cream dripping down her fingers. Yet for her, there are plenty more Shura's out there...withOUT bad attitudes and swastikas on their arms.
AND YET - here she is - ignoring him...no, worse...AVOIDING him - when he wants to try to work through his problems and BE the husband she needs him to be.
Oh I am just so annoyed. God this book is good. Especially for an overly analytical fool like me.